ZIILIA SEAH :D

This is bad. Very bad.

2012-01-17T13:46:00.000+08:00

This is bad. Very bad.

At this point of time I can seriously say, fuck.my.life.

2012-01-17T01:28:00.000+08:00

At this point of time I can seriously say,
fuck.my.life.

Why can't they understand?

like we have a clue

2012-01-12T01:19:00.004+08:00

like we have a clue

I suddenly feel so gushed with emotions lol is there even such a thing. It's probably the stress I'm facing now of having to decide where to go next after getting my 'O' Levels results. I don't think I fared that well. Please don't find me a bitch if you think my score is good because I'm not saying it's not good.. just not good enough for where I wanna go. It makes me feel so insecure because it's not like how it has always been.. my score doesn't secure me a space in the JC I wanna enter. And after getting advices from quite a number of people.. I'm feeling quite confused :( seriously I hope I don't make a wrong choice. Bless me.

Alright enough of studies. Personal matters. My life is perfectly normal right now but I just feel like I haven't been enough of a good person. I'm sorry to those I've let down/hurt/whatever shit I could have done without knowing it myself. <-- I don't even know if such a person exists la I'm just saying because I suddenly feel so fail in life WHYYYYYYYYYY like that. Period. Ignore me I don't know what I'm typing!!! Serious!

Enough of this crapping which even I do not understand... Goodbye.

Oh yes and I did quite a bit of shopping these few days and I'm really happy with my buys but ~$$$~ so yeap resist resist resist control stop spending on apparels. FOOD IS FINE... just not too much don't wanna grow fatter and chubbier. Bye!

Play and no Work

2012-01-04T00:42:00.002+08:00

Play and no Work

So I've been spending the last few days after ending work meaningfully.

30th Dec - Last day of work and supper with colleagues. They're a really nice bunch!

31st Dec - Wanted to try Twelve Cupcakes with Qiongdan(Pqd) but they were closed omggggggg :( All the way down to Novena you know! But oh well we had Texas Chicken hehe. Went off to Clarke Quay to meet Vivian(Cheok) and Ziting! They had Subway and Cheok was sooo lame! Hahaha. Watched people played Bungee and scared ourselves so we didn't try it. Whew* I didn't want to either. HAHAHA #scaredy-cat Wanted to check out The Clinic but it was gone, literally. So we settled at Harry's instead! Atmosphere was good and we played some game whereby each pair would list down 10 random words and the other would have to call someone and use them all! Omg it was h.i.l.l.a.r.i.o.u.s! But the mood was soon dampened by that stupid waitress. -_- She should just bang the wall with her stupidity. Not being mean but ugh you would understand if you were there. Luckily the Lava Chocolate Ice-cream was good. Somehow there wasn't the countdown feel there. Maybe it was too quiet. So we changed location to VivoCity. Over there we met Chuanyi(Tcy) and played Truth Or Dare. Hm... okay skip skip next it was the fireworks and of course, pictures! Haha. I love Cheok's iPhone 4s front cam!!! I'm sure we all do hahahahaha :s Afterwards we went to Mac before catching the last train. It was so funny when a few of us ran like shit because we thought the announcement was for our train :B Bought a milkshake and walked home from Westmall. It was nice. I mean the walk home not the milkshake hahaha but that was good too :9 Thanks Pqd and Tcy for sending me home!

1st Jan - Happy 2012! How time flies for 2011.. I know every year we say this but I swear 2011 went by the fastest in my whole 16 years. oo Spent 1/1 with my bestfriend. We went to Changi Airport just for Starbucks hahaha. Yes we're free souls, you jelly? ;) We took some time as if we were tourists but well we still managed to locate it right!! Haha. Sat there for hours on the comfy sofas and just plain chatting. Something I had always wanted to do during the holidays. We had Mac for dinner because we wanted the Twister fries hehe yums yums. Trip home was SUPER DUPER FUNNY I SWEARRRRRRRRRRR. I'm sure the commuters who saw us found us rather weird la.. we kept laughing uncontrollably you know!?!? But it was really funny reminiscing lower secondary school days hahahahahahha fun fun fun. (Friday wts)

2nd Jan - Shopping trip with Yolanda! Hehe she's the most patient person ever. We went to Raffles City to get some craft materials and Gongcha! After which we headed to OakhamMarket BUT IT WAS FREAKING CLOSED :'( so we squeezed our way through Chinatown (so damn crowded) and trained down to Orchard. Managed to get some stuffs but not much because we had limited time booooo. But the day was still well spent! Hehe. Pastamania for din din before heading back.

3rd Jan - Movie date with Pqd and Tcy. We were late oooops hahaha but nice Tcy bought us Gongcha first since he was early. Bused down to Orchard and we met Yinglian and Yuki on the bus! We couldn't say where we were going so as to not let Tcy know LOL. Caught New Year's Eve and it was so awesome!!!! I teared so much but I hope no one realized o"o It's either I really tear very easily or there were just so many touching parts in the show. Haha. Overall it's a show worth watching. Played Street Basketball at the arcade for some time before having Popeyes! Filling but yummaye. Walked around and bused home.

Great days spent. I love my friends. ♡♡♡

and over

2011-12-22T00:16:00.001+08:00

I have no words to say.

2011-12-20T23:54:00.002+08:00

I really don't get what you're thinking. Could you have at least warned me beforehand that you're actually this heartless? You know, you're actually even worse. You don't even have a proper reason. And the worst part is you promised. Thanks for that load of bullshit. Thanks so fucking much. Please think before you speak in the future. Don't ever do this again. Ever. I have spent enough time wondering why, and I really want to just forget about it. Like for fuck should I even bother? I should have known better than anyone else. But I chose to believe in you. I really don't get why I'm always meeting people who fucks up my life. I have no words to say.

Shopping trip with Yolanda ♥.

2011-12-20T23:33:00.003+08:00

Shopping trip with Yolanda ♥. We had so much to catch up on time wasn't enough! A really great day spent. It was fruitful too but... okay nevermind. Both of us had to meet others so we parted ways. Dinner with aunt and bro at Swensens. Nothing much to type because I don't feel like it. Oh yeah so I cleared my to-buy list for gifts in a day. Woahhhhhhh. Now for the part which requires the mood.. preparing the gifts and making the cards. <-- difficult task currently. That's all. Ciao.

If your life equivalents to how good a person you have been, I must have had been a rather terrible person.

2011-12-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

If your life equivalents to how good a person you have been, I must have had been a rather terrible person. Don't mind me saying this but fuck my life (sometimes). I seriously don't get it. What have I done to deserve yet another round of all these shit? Trust me to have trusted you people. I really see no point in me bothering about all these. Fuck you.

I need a new life.

2011-12-12T03:56:00.002+08:00

I feel damn fucked up. No it's not things making me feel this way but me feeling this way that makes things fucked up. You geddit???????????????????????

I need a new life.

Prom Night 2011

2011-12-04T01:59:00.004+08:00

Prom Night 2011
Vistosità; an evening of Glitz and Glamour

This was on the 30th November. I don't know why but it was rather embarrassing to cross the traffic light in the dress and such! So anyway Pqd and I couldn't get a cab so we were slightly late for our appointment.. but the manager/lady boss who did our hair and makeup was very friendly! Pretty satisfied with the outcome except for the curls being a tad too small BUT it couldn't last at all hahaha so yay. I guess we had no affinity with taxis lol so we ended up walking to Carlton Hotel LOLOLOL we are zai kias ^^v Okay why not I show you the pictures first! Or you probably skipped this whole chunk and won't even be reading this lolol. It's according to alphabetical order anyway LOL yes yes I'm too free.

OH YA ANYWAY, I literally felt OOOOOOO~ (if you even get this feeling) when I saw everyone! They just looked so good my gosh!!!

Alex.

Cheowyi. I think she looks cute here LOL.

Chuanyi. My.. 13 years friend? He said he knew me in kindergarten but I only remember seeing him in primary school lol!!! But ya he's actually very nice though he can be quite irritating sometimes hahaha. K la last time. But still as lame man!

Colin.

Elvin. "I'm sexy and I know it~" LOLOLOL I still find the video damn funny! He wore those short FBT LOL wts!!

Ernest. My 徒弟 hahaha! Ohmmmmmm.. he's probably ohm-ing at Bali now! LOL.

Eugene.

Jack. I find some of the things he says amusing LOL but I really can't recall. It's not a bad thing anyway.

Jasmine.

Jason. Mega smart guy I really wonder how he does it.

Jasper. Prom king! Congrats! Haha. I should have held the chocolates! I heard it's 2.26kg like omg who eats that much!!!

Jeremy. I seriously do not mean to sound sick but his hair looks softer than mine LOLOLOL #depressed

Jermine. Her hair at the back is tied into a ribbon! Cute hor! Haha. And her heels are feathery if I didn't remember wrongly.

Jiahao. He was going to walk away lo. Sigh. LOL.

Jiajia Ng. My cutest girl!! Hehe. Look at how awkward I am at the first picture.. this girl la ask me bend lower than her LOL. Anyway that night she's dressed as if she's attending a wedding! Her own wedding to be exact! If you're curious about the groom, scroll up and look for 'Eugene' who is too dressed like a groom LOL.

Jiajia Ong. Omg I swear she's damn funny and cute. LOL.

Jiaxin. I love her eyes okay!!

Jingyi.

Jordan. Don't know why being his deskpartner doesn't make me as smart as him. LOL. He's very nice anyway! Though sometimes he craps too much oops.

Junjie.

Junwei.

Kailun. The one you can turn to when you've problems! I love consulting him because he always seems to have the answers HAHA. Great friend to have.

Kimberly. Ahhh I kind of miss Councilor Welfare meetings together with Nicole and the rest!

Layli.

Lenard.

Melissa Choo. Don't you think she looks very cute!! LOL.

Melissa Ong. I love her hair!! Haha. Red leh my favourite LOLOL k redundant.

Minshi. The forever nice girl! At least I have never seen her angry before HAHA. Or maybe once when she looked at Weiherng during lesson time hahahahaha.

Nigel. He can crap a lot I swear. LOL.

Niki. Very nice girl! Very pretty also look at her humongous eyes omg! O.O no wonder many people are using photos taken with her as their FB dp! And I'm one of them hahaha.

Qiongdan. BEST GIRLF! HEHE. Known her since sec 1 omg all the retarded moments together... but she's sure awesome!!! :)

Ragnild. Talking to her on MSN is damn entertaining one hahaha anyway I love her outfit that day! Super chio.

Rebecca. Prom queen! Congrats! Haha. I think she has the chocolates too! No idea how what is she gonna do with that 2.26kg worth of chocolates! Hahaha.

Rosslynn. Close shots make my face looks even more screwed T.T but for the sake of memory. LOL.

Valencia.

Vivian Cheok. My Ziian!! She's cute and funny and friendly and nice and our 3rd monthsary is coming soon hehehe.

Vivian Ng. Very adorable little thing!! Awesome memories shared with her especially at chalet and genting!! I feel like playing joined force taidi with her, Jj and Pqd now HAHAHA.

Wanqi. One of the three nominees for prom queen. Pretty girl! :)

Yixin. *twist dance* hahaha okay we seldom do it already la growing up you see but it was funny! LOL. Anyway she's super skinny lo wl! Standing beside her is stressful LOL.

Yolanda. My pretty yoyo!! This picture does no justice her hair's damnnn pretty and it suited her so well man! Anyway she told me she got cut her hair shorter leh but it's still so long!! I miss my long hair... k stop LOL.

Yongquan. Always doing funny things in lower sec as what I recall hahaha and forever getting scolded by 黄老师 and asked to stand up!!! Then he and Tcy will sabo each other because if one stands the other can sit LOL.

Yunhong. One of the three nominees for prom king! And also my bestf! Haha. But he's like a C3... ~~~ C3 ~~ okay wait are there even green fishes?

Zhian. When there's Jordan, there's him! I realized this LOL. My ex-deskpartner too!

Ziting. We're the Zzziis! Hahaha. Always have fun talking to her on Twitter! Anyway I look like I'm about to laugh in the picture above. Looks a bit awkward LOL :s

Samatha. He's the one in blue and black! Joker one LOL. I realize he seems to be everywhere LOLOL.

Oh oh there was once Ziting gestured to take a photo and I thought she was calling Jasper so I went to sit down hahahaha damn paiseh I tell you!!

The two little ones!! So cute right they!

Dancers <3 To me we're one lucky batch to have each other!

2i3'09 I miss those times!! All the innocent days AND the many holes in the walls of our classroom.. I sound like I just contradicted myself right? Lol.

Photo credits: Ernest, Jasper, Melissa Choo, Melissa Ong, Niki, Qiongdan, Rebecca, Rosslynn, Ziting

Don't you think everyone looks so pretty and handsome!?!? Hehe. So prom night was awesome and I really enjoyed myself! But I think the amount of photos taken ain't enough!! Haha oops. And I didn't take with many others!! Wasted :( I will miss everyoneeeeeeeee. Whether they are close to me or not, they're all awesome people whom I'm glad to have met in my 4 years in Fuhua. Really hope we won't drift though I know it's quite or rather impossible! I think the next and the last time I would get to see them is during.. results day T.T Really need to thank the organizing committee and of course the awesome peeps for making this event such a memorable one. Love love love <3

Okay I'm doneeeeeeeeeeee! :) Random but my mom asked me this when she saw my prom photos, "So now all of you have each others' number?" And then I realized our batch don't keep in touch through phone but Twitter!! Hahaha. So anyway to those who are working, 加油！！！ And to those who are currently slacking their asses off (like me), hope you're enjoying yourself if not find something meaningful to do k HAHAHA. Enjoy your holidays!!! Goodbye! <3

WE SAW SUPERJUNIOR

2011-11-29T00:26:00.004+08:00

It has been a long while since my entire day went by so smoothly :) just a few slight irritations here and there but they were no big deal!!! And my day was great!

- did not oversleep
- happy texts from happy people
- good hair day
- my eyelids were rather well-behaved today
- dressed to my liking
- pretty pictures
- helped out a lady
- wasn't late
- Pqd and I both got what we wanted hehehehehehehehe
- Mars Balls o o o o O <-- that's the ice-cream lol
- HappyLemon
- WE SAW SUPERJUNIOR CRAP CRAP CRAP THEY WERE DAMN CLOSE TO US WE COULD HAVE TOUCHED THEM YOU KNOW YOU KNOW LIKE LESS THAN 1 METRE APART OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG ARE WE LUCKY OR WHAT WE DIDN'T GO THERE TO SEE THEM WE WERE JUST THAT LUCKY lol <: but sadly there was no Donghae and Ryeowook :( but oh well good enough :)
- legs hurt like maddd but it was a fruitful trip
- train and bus came on time and we had seats wheee
- yummy dinner and fruits
- Pqd and I were happy people
- etc

Hope you had a good day too goodbye! :)

Fuck my life. So much shit to worry about. Fucking hell.

2011-11-27T18:15:00.002+08:00

Fuck my life. So much shit to worry about. Fucking hell.

We can pretend all we want, but at the end of the day we truly know what's going on.

2011-11-26T00:42:00.002+08:00

We can pretend all we want, but at the end of the day we truly know what's going on. Sometimes life gets so hard you second doubt your existence, like it doesn't matter. It's like hitting rock bottom. And when that happens, all you wanna do is stay put but you know you can't and have to make your way back up. The whole experience and journey is tough but unavoidable. Life is not a piece of cake or anything easy and swift. You may feel like you're dying, or at least you want to, but you know you can't and that's one of the worst part. Life is painful but we got to live with it and wait for the beautiful moments. We can't change our fate but we can be thankful at least. Goodnight.

-'-

2011-11-25T22:37:00.001+08:00

-'-

You're The Apple Of My Eye

2011-11-21T22:08:00.001+08:00

Caught You're The Apple Of My Eye today.
Anyway, meet my boyfriend.

:D

Today I met up with Yolanda to get some Chem MCQs done!

2011-11-12T16:52:00.007+08:00

Today I met up with Yolanda to get some Chem MCQs done! So I reached JE library only to find out that it only opens at 2pm due to some staff meeting >:( Ite we did our work at Mac. Had a good catch up even though it was a short one since we both had to leave to meet our parents. Walked around IMM and I got so many things! Cleared much things on my to-buy-list so I'm a happy girl ^-^ IMM can be a nice place to shop too... sometimes hahaha. Okay what a nice weather to sleep but I don't feel like sleeping even though I'm tired o_O so I shall upload some random pictures I took lately during the exam period. Damn random.. lol. But you can't blame me studying is so boringgg!

I can't wait for the taste of freedom. Hehe soon. Goodbye!

My head hurts like shit.

2011-11-12T01:10:00.003+08:00

My head hurts like shit. Not headache kind of pain and it's only at a particular spot. What's happening inside??? Maybe I'm dying. Yeah prolly. Ahhh this sucks I shall head to bed soon. Gotta wake up rather early too! Meeting my yoyoyoyoyoyo hehe :) okay love love to those who deserves goodnight.

111111111211

2011-11-11T14:33:00.002+08:00

Oh yes! Happy 111111111211! LOL. If you're wondering why the '2' is there it's because I didn't manage to take a screenshot at exactly 11:11am because for some reason the screenshot took some icon on my laptop instead of my desktop >:( but I don't really care hahaha I'm just doing this for fun. Didn't even make any wish. Oh and just a thought, I think it's quite "lame"(this word is a little too harsh but I can't find a suitable worddd) to actually get into a r/s today and at the 111111 timing since there will be so many others doing so too, I suppose? #justsaying! And okay I really hope I don't get a gastric. All I had was a mangopeach yoghurt. But the cramps make me feel as if I'm not hungry Idk maybe I should grab something to munch on. Ahh bye!

mangopeach

2011-11-11T14:21:00.003+08:00

I was just too bored. Anyway I'm slacking and it feels good. Haha. But what's not so good is the terrible crampssssssss. I seldom have them and when it happens, omg I just wanna rot and die for the time being lol. But I'm waiting for aunt's call 'cause we might be heading out. But then again, with these cramps? :( should I just sleep or whut omgggggggg k no I don't feel like sleeping. What is this. When I have to study I wanna sleep so badly but when I don't have to, all I wanna do is stay awake and stone. <-- only applicable because I really have no idea what to do. I can't watch shows 'cause I've made it a point to only start after O's LOL. Now I'm bored again.................................... bye!

Yay a neat desktop now!

2011-11-10T15:21:00.001+08:00

Yay a neat desktop now!

1 hour of Physics mcq and another of Chemistry mcq and wholalaaaaaaaaa~

2011-11-10T14:50:00.003+08:00

1 hour of Physics mcq and another of Chemistry mcq and wholalaaaaaaaaa~
O'S ARE OFFICIALLY OVER.

Hehe I cannot wait! It's been sooo long. Close to 3 weeks already? I can't believe I survived through it all. The stress and all, ahhh. Unbearable yet bearable lol. Still remember how my bro kept saying "after your O levels you can enjoy like mad already" before it even started! I can remember A LOT of things to proof how fast time has past. Yes yes I always do that but I tried to stop myself from doing so and have been quite successful but this, this is too much I gotta say it!!! LOL. I can feel happiness flying to me hehehe so what if life stinks??? Just be grateful and happy over the little things and life would seem better. I'm trying.

Oh well pretty much looking forward to later. X-Factor woohoooooo. I love that show! Lol okaycan lalala. Random much but I'm having my lunch now, done with the fries only and I'm daaaamn full already. I wonder why the small appetite but oh well.

Appreciate everything. xx goodbye!

5 more days 4 more papers 3 more subjects 2 more weekends less than 1 more week till 0 stress level! LOL

2011-11-09T17:28:00.001+08:00

5 more days
4 more papers
3 more subjects
2 more weekends
less than 1 more week
till 0 stress level!
LOL

So I studied Stalin and Hitler, both came out, but married in the SBQ section. How nice :)

2011-11-08T13:02:00.001+08:00

So I studied Stalin and Hitler, both came out, but married in the SBQ section. How nice :)
~.~ zai jian le!

I am a sad girl.

2011-11-04T21:29:00.001+08:00

I am a sad girl.

O levels

2011-10-23T19:55:00.003+08:00

O levels starts tomorrow. Yeap, in less than 24hours. Stress but.. I can do it right? Hopefully. I will just try my best to leave no room for regrets! (feels as though I'm writing a composition because it's English paper tomorrow lol) Gambatte!!!!!!!! Can't wait to taste freedom!! Hehe goodbye!

Sighhhhhhhhhhhh I'm always doing this to myself.

2011-10-16T02:57:00.000+08:00

It's going to be 3am soon.. I'm waking up at 6.30am which means <4hours of sleep.. still haven't completed my Math worksheet.. and yet I'm here. Sighhhhhhhhhhhh I'm always doing this to myself. I don't want to but I can't help it how???????????? Okay, at least I know what I'm doing is right. I mean not that but that. Lol okay fine not like anyone would get it anyway. But then, how do I even explain this. Maybe I shall put it this way, at the end of the day I find myself stupid. About everything. I really don't know what to think. It's like millions of thoughts are running through my mind but I can't catch a single one. I really don't know. Okay I'm wasting my time. Sigh fkery fk. Bye!!

Yesterday was Graduation Day.

2011-10-08T14:27:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was Graduation Day. 4 years past just like that. No words can describe my life in FHSS but I can say that I really enjoyed myself there and I never regretted choosing that school as my first choice. The experiences, the friends, the memories. Everything. I love them all. FHSS Class of 2011. 4e4'11, "sisters and brothers", oh and "parents", hahaha. And many others of course. Oh yes and Chinese Dance too hehe. Without all of them life would have definitely been different. So, so glad. :') Okay as I said no words can describe. So I shall end it off with, I hope I fight this battle with O levels well. Pray for me. Hwaiting! :)

<3 <3 <3 bye.

No matter what I do, it would be wrong. So the fuck am I suppose to do...

2011-09-25T17:39:00.002+08:00

No matter what I do, it would be wrong.
So the fuck am I suppose to do...
It isn't what they think.
They've never been in my shoes.
They've no idea what I've been through.
Do you know how it feels????

Please understand.

2011-09-25T16:30:00.000+08:00

Please understand.

I came to realize that my happiness is brought about by myself.

2011-09-24T03:16:00.000+08:00

I came to realize that my happiness is brought about by myself. How contradicting isn't it? Me wanting to stop feeling this way and to be happy, while in actual fact I'm the one doing this to myself. Fuck it I can never seem to be happy with anything. Seriously. I would unknowingly find fault in every single thing. Okay maybe not fault, but more of flaws. And here I am hating how people are so fickle-minded yet I'm nothing better. -_- Just wanna slap myself in the face. FUCK........................................ okay sorry for the expletives used. It's past 3am. Should I head to bed? Too troubled to sleep, too frustrated to be awake. I really don't know what to do about myself. Or should I put it this way, I don't know how to deal with these shits. I'm fighting this battle alone, with myself and nobody else. It would have been easier if it was with someone else, like someone that I'm "suppose to hate". But it's not. Sigh. I need some answers.

Shit doesn’t happen - life happens.

2011-09-24T02:57:00.000+08:00

Shit doesn’t happen - life happens. Things go wrong, people change, and sometimes it feels like you can’t go on. But, in the end, you have to stop blaming everyone else and put it on yourself to be happy, because it’s your life and you have to make it through the hard times to get stronger.

My life is so wrong right now.

It's a Friday but it doesn't feel like one.

2011-09-23T20:32:00.000+08:00

It's a Friday but it doesn't feel like one.

I seriously don't know what I've been doing all week. Too slack till I can't even stand it :( Really need to buck up but all I do is talk and no action. -_- To be frank prelim results were rather disappointing.. but I can't tell anyone because to them it might just be good so I will end up sounding likea bitch, so yeah.

Oh yes and recently some drama happened. I think it's scary how different perspectives can escalate into such dramatic conflicts. Not a full-blown one (shit I sound so Social Studies) but it's still quite scary.

So somehow (almost) every time I will feel -4jsaldkjk on a Friday night, I realize. I swear at times it's for no particular reason at all. I just get this whole screwed up feeling and every single shit around irritates me. People, especially. Then I start to talk like some attitude kid to some. Sigh but I can't help it! :( At this moment I can easily name you a few that I got annoyed with. And that's bad.

And sometimes, don't you just feel so lost about yourself? Like as if you really don't know how you are? What you want? I get that a lot of time and I feel so helpless. Too fickle-minded I suppose. Sigh. I really don't know how to put these into words. This is of no use.

K bye.

Tumblr pics

2011-09-23T18:24:00.001+08:00

Tumblr

The right words can transform whatever, whoever, they touch. Words are powerful. They hurt and they heal, they show you things in a completely differe

2011-09-19T20:15:00.000+08:00

We want someone we’ll be happy sitting next to on a couch while watching television and eating frozen yogurt.

2011-09-19T20:11:00.001+08:00

We want someone we’ll be happy sitting next to on a couch while watching television and eating frozen yogurt. Someone we can do the laundry with and grocery shop with and take the occasional walk in the rain with.

We'd be so less fragile if we're made from metal and our hearts from iron and our minds from steel.

2011-09-18T00:28:00.001+08:00

A well deserved break

2011-09-17T22:38:00.004+08:00

A well deserved break

> Oakham Market - bought a pretty red top omg love it have been searching for something like that for so long already.
> Scape - fleaaaaaa got 2 tops and 2 dresses teehee good bargains! :)
> Ion - Green Tea with Rock Salt Cheese from Happylemon! Not too bad uh!
> HSH

Awesome day spent well with my girlsssssssssssssssss <3

Hi. It's 2:25AM and I am here with nothing better to do.

2011-09-17T02:37:00.000+08:00

Hi. It's 2:25AM and I am here with nothing better to do.

#lifeofanolevelkid!? You must be kiddingz me haha. Okay no la am taking a break! Just ended prelims earlier today. Oh well.. I'm rather disappointed with myself for not putting in enough effort. But no use crying over split milk so I shall just bear the consequence; bad results. But I'm still hoping I will score relatively well or something la!! At least I got study rightttttt :( OH YEAH! This is a good place to rant since it's my space so nobody can say I'm irritating or anything LOL. I doubt anyone reads this space anyway. So here I gooooooooo!

Basically I screwed up many papers. Screwed up not in the sense of whether I will do well or not but in the sense that I left so many blanks due to the lack of time. Like wtf around 4 papers 10< blanks. BLANKS. That's like one of the worse thing that can happen for an exam paper :( Idky I do so slow leh... sighhhhhhhhhh and then for many other papers I made stupid mistakes... so stupid I don't even wanna talk about it so I shall end here.

Next! Life. LOL. My life's.. neutral lol no good no bad. But Idky today like pms or soemthing lol. Feeling particularly.. uh.. sensitive? Not exactly the word leh. It's like I keep thinking about things that happened. Stuffs that happened long ago etc. I wonder if I was stupid then. But then, I don't think I was. How was I to know right??? You're so cruel really. Not even a word of goodbye. Like whut, thanks a whole shit lot, not that I really give a damn anymore though ;) I won't wanna waste my time away like that okehhhhhhh. ^^

And as if it's not ridiculous enough, it's even more ridiculous. -_-"

Blogging doesn't make me feel better anymore like how it used to :( I think I know the reason why. Sighhhhhhh goodbye!

好stress

2011-09-08T00:19:00.000+08:00

好stress好stress...

pretty collar

2011-09-07T16:46:00.001+08:00

So pretty I wanttt.

I really want to talk to someone, but there's no one.

2011-09-06T18:15:00.001+08:00

I really want to talk to someone

but there's no one.

Gossip Girls

2011-09-06T01:47:00.001+08:00

I wanna watch ughhhhhhhhhhh!

She’s suffering the consequences of letting other people’s opinions get to her.

2011-09-05T16:12:00.001+08:00

She’s suffering the consequences of letting other people’s opinions get to her.

Need.to.learn.

This life is what you make it.

2011-09-05T14:08:00.000+08:00

This life is what you make it. No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes, it’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends – they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything – they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them – actually pretty much all of them- are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about.

— Marilyn Monroe

I think the best gift you can give someone is the reason to wake up in the morning.

2011-09-05T14:04:00.000+08:00

I think the best gift you can give someone is the reason to wake up in the morning.

So I went back to school for 1 hour of Physics remedial... luckily Mr Sreeni was in a rather good mood. He didn't even drag a wee bit!! Proves my point right? Haha. Okay my life is so boring I have nothing to blog about. LOL. So... okay................ hmmm well I'm super bored now.. and the only thing I can do is my homework boohoo :(

Oh anyway via http://justlittlethings.net/

Two messages were sent to me anonymously:

Anonymous asked: On omegle today I ran into someone that was about to commit suicide. I tried talking them out of it, telling them that life was too precious to be taken away and it will get better. He didn’t believe me, but started to cheer up and finally listen to me after I showed him your tumblr :)

Anonymous asked: someone on omegle sent me here.. when i asked if i should kill myself. i didn’t get a chance to say thank you. i just want them to know i’m grateful. <3

Goodbye!

I find pieces of myself everywhere, and I cut myself handling them.

2011-09-03T01:18:00.000+08:00

I find pieces of myself everywhere, and I cut myself handling them.
— Jeanette Winterson, Lighthousekeeping

September

2011-09-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

Hello September

1st September was amazing.

Teachers' Day celebration;
- as audience for the basketball match for Aces day, good players.
- cutting of cakes and double wacko.
- well-organised (the best I suppose) celebration with cute people (Jiajia, Nicole, Pqd and Vivian) around me.

Time Alone;
- bused down to Jurong Point to get my photos printed!
- treated myself Mos's strawberry milkshake hehehe yum yum!

Meet The Primary School (and it's former pupils);
- went back to YHPS and caught up with the rest!
- attended the celebration, ALL OF THEM WERE SO MINI OMG!!!
- recognised many teachers but couldn't remember names..
- Mrs Ng, the only teacher I wanted to see, went out for some course :(
- toured around the school hehehe had fun in a random classroom even LOL, nothing much changed :)
- lunch at Mac with Alissa, Ernest, Janine, Jeslyn, Jun Xian and some guy whom I don't know of. 6/7 ate fillet hahaha.
- oh yes Xuan lin left early while Weeiyueh and Weixiang joined us afterwards!
- gossip session hehehe! No la just catching up okay!! But it was cute. Once we tricked Weixiang that Weeiyueh exposed him and we knew who he like and we all played along so well hahaha! #mean
- PLAYGROUND! Epic.. the guy with the blower machine thingy used to blow the leaves etc away kept blowing as though we don't exist!! Funny though Ideky LOL. Once he totally blew Weeiyueh's feet HAHAHA.
- After some time we went to the basketball court and continued talking!
- Alissa, Janine, Jeslyn and I talked CONSECUTIVELY for 6 whole hours OMG HAHAHA. Awesome though. We can actually get along so well we want to meet up again soon!! Hahaha. Still quite surprised how not awkward it was! Hehe.

Overall today was fun and awesome and I loved it. Please let it remain this way. <3 goodbye.
Enjoy your holidays but remember to study hard too! (if you are having holidays)
:)

463. Finding the perfect gift for someone.

2011-08-31T18:51:00.003+08:00

"LOL~ later tou tai worse how..."
"I die again HAHA!"

Anywayyyyyyy I'm in high spirits so I shall blog!!! :)
So yeah total was Physics paper 2 and Elective History preliminary exams.
The papers were rather doable but not gonna have like crazy expectations since I didn't put in much effort (couldn't stop stoning for the past few days wts).
But oh well just so glad that it's over!!!
And you know what, 4 days of break before this, and now there's 11 more days of break.. LOL.
Gotta study hardddd though.
Kind of think I would waste much days away but I will TRY okay. (hope)

So so so after the papers Pqd and I went Jurong Point for lunch!
Settled down at LaiLai and omg awesome lunch we kept laughing!!!
Damn joke omg hahaha. :B
Got some stuffs at Popular hehehe gonna make birthday cards soon!
For an October and November baby LOL..
not I kiasu la is O level period no time to make!
Home and wah the bus stink + damn shagged.

Enjoying life with aircon + Itunes + doing nonsensical stuffs + having no worries (cause it's just Teachers' Day celebration tomorrow) HEHEHE.
It's 7pm soon and my show's about to start ++ points to life hahaha.
Later meeting Pqd to go print photos :)

Okay byeeeeeeee.

Nothing.

2011-08-30T15:43:00.000+08:00

Fault?

2011-08-30T15:11:00.001+08:00

Fault?

I realize it's nobody's fault. It's how the world works. Every single one of us have different perspectives. We choose to believe what we see, and how we feel. In other words, it all depends on how we see things. So nobody's ever right or wrong. Sigh I'm sorry no matter what. To all of you. Never wanted any of this to happen. I guess things just got complicated along the way when actually it shouldn't because I don't see why it should (you see, perspective again).

MAY I USE EXPLETIVES PLEASE? K.

2011-08-29T19:51:00.003+08:00

MAY I USE EXPLETIVES PLEASE? K.

If you are, stop fucking judging. You don't fucking understand. I really fucking wanna say something but I can't because I'm just assuming and even if it's true and I do I would be fucking judged again ah fuck it all.

(sorry..)

Evanescence - My Immortal

2011-08-29T16:11:00.000+08:00

Okay I just typed a whole chunk of words but backspaced every shit. Sigh bye.

2011-08-29T14:51:00.003+08:00

Okay I just typed a whole chunk of words but backspaced every shit. Sigh bye.

People are gonna label you. But it's how you overcome those labels. That's what matters.

2011-08-29T13:52:00.001+08:00

“You’re not alone. People understand how you feel. High school was never meant to be easy, honey.”

2011-08-28T20:09:00.001+08:00

“You’re not alone. People understand how you feel. High school was never meant to be easy, honey.”

she said "some days I feel like shit, some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit."

2011-08-28T14:31:00.001+08:00

tumblrpic

2011-08-28T14:13:00.001+08:00

What am I suppose to do when I'm all choked up and you're okay?

2011-08-27T16:37:00.000+08:00

What am I suppose to do when I'm all choked up and you're okay?
What am I suppose to do when I'm all choked up and you're okay?
What am I suppose to do when I'm all choked up and you're okay?

What am I suppose to do when I'm all choked up and you're okay?

FUCK THIS WHAT SHOULD I DO.

2011-08-27T16:16:00.002+08:00

FUCK THIS WHAT SHOULD I DO.
(and my apologies for the many expletives used lately. I can't help it)

And you aren’t sure whether you’re walking toward something, or if you’re just walking away.

2011-08-27T14:59:00.001+08:00

And you aren’t sure whether you’re walking toward something, or if you’re just walking away.

I just want you to disappear.
All of you to disappear.
But first, let me disappear.

Fuck You

2011-08-27T13:54:00.000+08:00

Fuck You

Just give me a damn break.

2011-08-27T01:54:00.003+08:00

Am I suppose to pretend as if nothing happened???
Seriously the shit is wrong with my life.
One bullshit after another.
Just give me a damn break.

We can hide things away. But we can't forget.

2011-08-27T01:27:00.001+08:00

Fucked up.

So much to say but nothing to write.

2011-08-13T13:51:00.000+08:00

So much to say but nothing to write.

Happy 46th Birthday Singapore!

2011-08-10T16:43:00.000+08:00

Happy 46th Birthday Singapore!
Happy 18th Birthday Yufei aka dad hahaha.
Happy very belated birthday present to Pqd aka sister hahaha.

I need air.

2011-08-03T23:14:00.003+08:00

Things are no longer the same anymore. So much has changed all too sudden I can't breathe. I'm losing myself as the thoughts run wild while they may not even be the truth. Half the time it's assumptions and assuming fking sucks.

I need air.

I really want them to be happy, you know? I really want them to be.

2011-08-03T19:31:00.000+08:00

I really want them to be happy, you know? I really want them to be.

2011-08-02T20:37:00.002+08:00

No one will truly understand how I feel. No one. Caught in the middle. Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

colourful paper hearts

2011-08-01T20:11:00.001+08:00

I miss the dance studio at UCC. I miss the people. I miss dancing. I miss performing.

2011-07-31T14:47:00.002+08:00

I miss the dance studio at UCC.
I miss the people.
I miss dancing.
I miss performing.
♥

I had a haircut. o.o

2011-07-30T19:17:00.000+08:00

I had a haircut. o.o

Racial Harmony Day 2011

2011-07-22T23:42:00.002+08:00

Racial Harmony Day 2011
The most awesome RHD celebration ever!! :) super high assembly + photo spam hahaha.

These are those crazier ones who stayed back (despite being able to go home) to fool around taking pictures! :B

SUPER ADORABLE RIGHT? Haha.

Their funny Bollywood style pose.. LOL.

Rainbow Party! Hehehe.

LOL

School's library became so much prettier after renovation!

LOL Kailun was like zi-highing the whole time la!

Uh... LOL.

:)

"Praying" HAHAHAHA.

The husband died :( LOL.

Those of us at the back had no idea what Malay actions are there so we ended up becoming owls. LOL.

Seriously I find this so cute!!! LOL.

Linnah's supposingly like Cinderella. LOL!

This 3 jokers damn funny!

Oh this was my lunch. So we finally remembered to try Char-Grill and it wasn't that bad at all! Quite nice in fact! :)

There are much more photos but these shall sum up my day! Happy Racial Harmony Day!!! Hehehehe such a happy girl seeing all those photosssssssssss :) good bye!

"I want to tear myself from this place,

2011-07-17T14:50:00.001+08:00

"I want to tear myself from this place, from this reality, rise up like a cloud and float away, melt into this humid summer night and dissolve somewhere far, over the hills. But I am here, my legs blocks of concrete, my lungs empty of air, my throat burning. There will be no floating away."

— Khaled Hosseini

This fucked up world we live in.

2011-07-16T21:26:00.001+08:00

This fucked up world we live in.

Sorry the world is so cruel. Hang in there.

2011-07-16T14:58:00.001+08:00

I just felt like blogging. So here I am.

2011-07-07T21:00:00.000+08:00

I just felt like blogging. So here I am.

So I have to admit that time flies. Haha how cliche it sounds but seriously.. okay I shall not go into details or it would just bore you out. Okay wait, actually I'm blogging for my own mind sake so I guess it doesn't really matters. But my fingers doesn't seem too cooperative so I shall skip this part.

To start off today, it was on a negative note. I thought so from the start that it won't be a good day. Or to be more specific, it was a day I never wanted to go through. The schedule.. omg. A math test, Physics SPA, Chemistry SPA (slim chance though), PE in the late afternoon.., CCA after the long day of lessons plus remedial, etc. Doesn't sound too bad but to me it was. But oh well, today didn't turn out that bad afterall. Not that negative now right? Haha.

Lessons were rather okay. Guess I'm sort of used to the long hours already. PE was good because we had recreation instead! My goodness can you just imagine running 2.4 under that crazy heat? x.x During lunch, Pqd and I finally tried this patty thingy which everyone had been saying was delicious. And it really wasn't that bad! Okay so Physics SPA was okay because Mr Sreeni was in a good mood and my experiment worked out fine :) Didn't have any Chemistry SPA test too!

Had CCA after but we only managed to dance three times since there wasn't enough time. But omg dancing three times straight was so tiring because it's been so long since we did that! Stamina dropped like shit haha. And, practice didn't end off well. Oh but you know, Xulaoshi praised us girls today! It's a rather rare thing I must say.

Got my honey aloe vera drink before heading home. While walking up to the upper deck of the bus Pqd stepped onto my shoe and it fell off omg so paiseh the people behind me had to stop :( she badly wants to be my Prince Charming.. I know right.. (shy)

Homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Dong Yi is such a great show hehe okay I'm tired so goodbye.

Oh anyway, seriously I have the urge to counter-attack what you said but I shall not because you MAY have a good intention for doing so so I shall not judge. (though I'm cursing you in my heart) I hope I don't ever see your face again.

BABIES TASTING LEMONS FOR THE FIRST TIME

2011-07-05T18:43:00.001+08:00

BABIES TASTING LEMONS FOR THE FIRST TIME

Via http://choconillabiebersyrup.tumblr.com

OMG CUTE TTM TTM TTM!!!

It's like I'm just making use of this space, but that's what a blog is for right?

2011-07-03T23:45:00.003+08:00

It's like I'm just making use of this space, but that's what a blog is for right?

So hi once again. This space where I always wanted to type down everything that happened in my life, but due to certain circumstances I decided to "abandon" it. Now I sound as if I'm contradicting myself but who really cares. So yeah here I go about my rantings.

I'm feeling so damn sad now lol. It's like the whole damn world's crushing down. Actually, it isn't that bad. I'm just exaggerating. But the feeling's that bad. Sigh why always like that oneeeeeeeeeeeee. My life just sucks so bad sometimes la. I don't appreciate life? I do. Just that at moments like this I just can't find any reason why not to feel this way.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHSDJALSIDJAKS

Bye.

When you stand in front of me and look at me, what do you know of the griefs that are in me and what do I know of yours?

2011-06-20T22:46:00.001+08:00

When you stand in front of me and look at me, what do you know of the griefs that are in me and what do I know of yours?

model

2011-06-20T22:40:00.001+08:00

closet

2011-06-20T22:22:00.001+08:00

and just see what happens.

2011-06-20T22:18:00.001+08:00

"Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens."

There is always a soft spot in my heart for you -

2011-06-18T16:36:00.000+08:00

Stop hanging me in dead air and throwing me off anytime you want. -_-

2011-06-18T16:04:00.004+08:00

Stop hanging me in dead air and throwing me off anytime you want. -_-

I know I have no rights so I'm not doing anything but you should also realize what you're doing. Maybe to you it means nothing but to me it means a whole lot so please stop doing that. Omg. Lacking of words so bye.

Is it wrong for me to not have you and yet not want anyone else to have you either?

2011-06-17T15:17:00.001+08:00

Is it wrong for me to not have you and yet not want anyone else to have you either? Because I don’t think my fragile heart can handle your words describing how someone else makes you better than who you are when I’m still wishing I was the light in your night.

Smack yourself back into reality.

2011-06-16T13:48:00.003+08:00

Now I understand what he meant. Something I used to believe in too. There's no such thing as ______.
Smack yourself back into reality.

Please stop this.

2011-06-16T02:04:00.000+08:00

Please stop this.

I can't tell if this is a good thing or if it's a bad thing or if it's even a thing at all.

2011-06-15T00:58:00.000+08:00

I don't want to say goodbye to people anymore.

2011-06-11T22:54:00.000+08:00

haiz

June

2011-06-09T23:06:00.001+08:00

June

Okay it's been such a long time since I last blogged a proper post! Haha. I shall start from 1st of June! :)

0106
Okay that day sucked. Was suppose to meet friends at Chinese Garden, hence I took the bus down to some where near my primary school to get myself a bubble tea(omg their oreocrush is da bestz). Then it started pouring.. which means we won't be able to go to Chinese Garden anymore. As such, I decided to take the bus down to school. And wtmf, my phone went mad and I couldn't contact anyone. @#&@*$^ pissed the shit out of me and I headed all the way back home -.-

Had Meet The Parents after that. Luckily Gelasia had to stay too if not I would have looked like some emo kid in the canteen all by myself. Anyway, it was a total waste of time man! Miss Tan was talking to me and only me the whole time. She said she had nothing much to say about me. What's the point of this meeting right!? Sheesh.

0206
Uh.. LOL. I only know there was remedial hahaha.

0306
So was this day. I really can't remember what I did! LOL.

0406
Went shopping with Gelasia and Qiongdan. Met Gelasia first and while we were on the train, one of our conversations went:
Me: "Eh that lady looks like your mother leh."
Her: "Which?"
Me: "The one with the fan."
Her: -thinks: I thought only my mother brings a fan around with her- "OMG THAT IS MY MOTHER."
And then we got off the train hahaha. We went to the Fleas at Scape and I had such great buys! Heeee :) Bugis next and I wanted to get my KOI but the queue was so freaking long :@ we ended up shopping at Bugis street because the Flea ended at 7pm which was too late by the time we found the location lol. Got Fuzhen's present - 16 pairs of earrings hahaha! 16th birthday mah, and she seems to like earrings x: slacked at the Sky Park at Iluma for awhile before heading home.

0506
Celebrated Fuzhen's birthday! :) since it rained we went to Kailun's house instead. Played games and it was fun luh hahaha. I did a chicken dance though so embarrrassing x: at around evening time we parted ways and Qiongdan, Zhian and I went to Science Centre LOL. The suay thing was that, we reached at around 613pm and the place closes at 6pm -.-. So we ended up slacking at the Mac and having ice-creams and applepies! Hahaha shiok also :)

0606
Had to attend some English 'O'level course at the NTUC building as early as 830am x.x luckily Fuzhen knew how to go if not I think we would get lost haha. The whole thing wasn't as bad la the speakers were quite alright. But it got boring when nearing the end and I started drifting off.. but I survived! Haha. When leaving I saw Xuanlin omg!! We were both so shocked haha. Seeing so many Nan Hua people, I was wondering if I would see her there.

Afterwards Qiongdan, Zhian and I went to 313 Somerset for lunch! Yoshinoya yums :9 shopped for just a little while before settling for Yami yogurt and slacking our butts off again x: (sidetrack: Jordan just said I never blog already LOL) soon it was time to meet Jordan. Headed to Cineleisure to catch Kungfu Panda 2!

It wasn't too bad a show! :) I think we went home after that? Or did we eat dinner.. I really cannot remember sia wtf :o

0706
1 hour of Chemistry remedial ended up into 3. I thought I went somewhere, but I can't seem to recall LOL. Forget it then :D

0806
Physics remedial but luckily Mr Sreeni was in a good mood x: Math remedial which was also the last lesson with Mr Gannieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :( so gonna miss him! Such a nice teacher he is.

Went singing singing singing~ with Fuzhen, Jordan, Kailun, Qiongdan and Zhian! At the NTU alumni building which took us some time to get there because.. aiya if you go there before then you will understand already lol. Although the room was rather small, it was fun!!!! Hahaha. Jordan can really sing sia!! Never knew~ the rest were super enthu for certain songs which made it so entertaining and fun hahaha. Went home after and we had to wait for so many trains before managing to get it! x.x

0906
Got pangsehed by two people :@ but oh well went for movie with Yunhong! We had lunch first at Subway and that noob had a stomache halfway LOL. Caught Super 8

and I think it was a rather nice show! :) luckily not scary... HAHAHA. Okay inside joke. Took a bus home after that. Uh, imagine you get poked by glass and then you bleed a lot. >.> Okay so anyway the guy sitting behind me dropped something onto me and for a moment I thought he did it on purpose LOL. Oh yeah and earlier in the day this aunty kept staring at me wth x.x

Aunt came to fetch meeee~ staying over at her place with bros and cousins hehehe. :) gonna eat a Magnum ice-cream soon! <:

These are from bestf :)

ALRIGHT WHAT A LONG POST RIGHT HAHA. Hi Jordan, full concentration yeah? Haha.

Bye!

I really want to talk to someone, but there's no one.

2011-06-09T18:10:00.000+08:00

I really want to talk to someone

but there's no one.

Love is like a mix tape filled with everything you love and hate.

2011-06-08T21:32:00.000+08:00

Love is like a mix tape filled with everything you love and hate.

galaxy nails

2011-06-07T20:54:00.001+08:00

supa cool i want

We’re all in the same game, just different levels. Dealing with the same hell, just different devils.

2011-06-07T20:40:00.001+08:00

We’re all in the same game, just different levels.
Dealing with the same hell, just different devils.

he got down on one knee and asked me to be his wife..”

2011-06-05T00:08:00.003+08:00

causewheniclosemyeyes:

“He told me I was doing a photo shoot of him and I had to send some pictures to his mother back home, and he wanted to be in his uniform and me looking nice in a dress, and then when I set the timer and ran over to stand beside him, he got down on one knee and asked me to be his wife..”

Gosh.. perfect moment captured in picture mode :)

take me away,justyou&&me.

2011-06-05T00:06:00.000+08:00

Problems everywhere.

2011-06-03T21:08:00.001+08:00

Problems everywhere.
With everything. With everyone.

June.

2011-06-02T00:04:00.001+08:00

I just found out something. What am I suppose to do now :(

2011-05-31T17:06:00.001+08:00

I just found out something. What am I suppose to do now :(

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, off to JP x.x

No explanation. No words said.

2011-05-31T16:59:00.001+08:00

It's kinda fucked up isn't it? How all of a sudden, someone just wakes up and decides to never talk to you again. No reason. No explanation. No words said. They just leave you hanging like you never meant shit to them, and what hurts the most is how they made it look so easy.